Ideation

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IDEATION


No easy way to say this, 

but I haven't been myself 


of late. Intrusive thoughts, 

a sudden weight, all that.


Please don’t bear the blow of this

attack, late nights playing back


how I might have been saved,

if only this, etc. You get the gist.


No one saw it coming, the way

it crept inside and hollowed out 


a space for itself until 

there was nothing left. 


What’s that? Wait, this isn’t 

about death. More as if 


someone else is breathing in me, 

has become my very breath.


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